It’s really not so bad

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This post was going to start as a huge whine about how my life sucks right now. Then I remembered my little Muffie sleeping in the next room, and my cute hubby downstairs in his office, and I realized that it’s not so bad after all. People can let you down, kids can get sick, but life goes on. And with these two here beside me, that’s really all that matters.

I will briefly explain the whine, though. Bailey threw up last night for about six hours. We have no idea what caused it. It’s really, really sad and scary and gross when a baby that age throws up. It just happens suddenly and of course they have no idea what is going on or that it should have happened over the toilet. Poor baby, her eyes just got so big and then she cried. The night ended with sheets all over her bedroom floor and covering her rocking chair, and me sleeping on the floor next to her bed. That was after she threw up in her bed and didn’t wake up. She just stayed asleep with her face in it And it scared me.

Then today I had lunch plans and my friend had to cancel beyond last minute. I was waiting by my front door with my hair done and makeup on, and she called. So I spent a chunk of the afternoon whining about that. Sometimes I just feel like nothing goes my way.

Anyway, I know what they say about not waking a sleeping baby but I am going to go get Bailey out of bed and hug her and snuggle with her. She has been napping for three hours now.

Quick post

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I am dealing with dial-up and a crappy computer here, but I just wanted to post and say that we are still alive. I can’t WAIT to come home! Our visit has been okay- not as bad as in years past but I am sick of people pawing Bailey constantly and his mother never leaving me alone. She has been napping and going to bed just fine here in her pack n play, but she has been getting up a lot earlier (and we don’t want to let her fuss too long since there’s a house full of people) so we are very tired. I am just looking forward to being home and having “real” Christmas with my family on the 30th.

I will have to tell you all the comical and miserable details of this trip later. I will just leave you with a few kickers. First, MIL got Bailey a USED tube of diaper cream for while we were here. Second, they keep trying to drive off before her carseat is buckled. The other day we had to take her coat off to fit the straps, and FIL was like, she doesn’t need them, just hold her in. He was dead serious. Third, MIL walked in on me while I was peeing and just kept talking to me. Remember how last summer she walked in on me pumping? They have a serious knocking on doors before opening problem here.

Over Christmas Break

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Yes, it is called Christmas Break when your hubby gets two weeks off work. Other than traveling Oklahoma (a.k.a. big fat miserable waste of time) we are planning to look at some furniture stores to get some ideas for downstairs. We are also going to an 8-hour carpet sale on New Year’s Day. Yeah, have big holiday plans. (By the way I am seriously dreading going to Oklahoma. I have tried to think of tons of excuses for Bailey and I to stay home. Last year I prayed that I would get sick, too sick to travel. It’s that bad).

I am just so tired of looking at the downstairs and how awful it is… not to mention that last night Jonathon dripped rotten potato juice all the way down the stairs and across the basement floor on the way to the garage and then didn’t clean it up. I wasn’t home at the time and I got home and asked him why he didn’t clean it up. His answer was that he thought we weren’t going to keep that carpet anyway. Lazy man. Then when he finally DID clean it up he used Fantastik bathroom cleaner and paper towels. If you want something done right you might as well do it yourself.

Wow, this turned into an unexpected rant about my husband

Nothing to see here

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I am kind of blah. I have nothing to post, without just whining. I am disappointed with my friends right now. Not anyone in particular, really… just feeling like I don’t have many *good* friends has gotten to me. Like no one to pick up the phone and call when I’ve had a bad day, or when something great happens. Yeah, I have my mom and Jonathon, but that’s about it lately. Jonathon says I’m doing this to myself, isolating myself. There are certain people who I have repeatedly asked to hang out, yet we never get together. I guess I should get the hint, but my point to him is that I AM TRYING!

Tonight I went to a Christmas party that my friend Jen hosted. Quite a few of our friends never bothered to RSVP. It seems lately that nobody cares about anything. Then, there were some who RSVP’d and didn’t show up. I guess I was just disappointed with that, too.

I know it’s not going to be like high school or college, ever again, but I just want some friends I can count on. Who I can go out with and do nothing, just sit and talk. I hate talking about Bailey to my friends without kids, because I feel like they get sick of hearing about her. But, she is such a huge part of my life. My friends with kids, they never seem available. It’s always something… their kid is tired, they have things to do, etc. Well, me personally, when Bailey is crabby I would much rather get out of the house than sit home and be irritated with her.

Being a mom can be really lonely, too. Can’t go out to whatever party, because there isn’t anyone free to watch the baby. Everyone else is hanging out, but you are in the other room nursing. Nothing done around the house because the baby is having a fit. Some days I feel like Bailey is so all-consuming, and all I do is BE a mom. If that makes any sense. I want to be a wife and a friend and a person, too. Sometimes, I don’t have much to contribute to conversations, except like “Hey, I cleaned my bathroom today and Bailey ate her peas.” Thrilling for everyone to hear.

Sometimes I think, am I that much of a bitch? Am I that boring? Am I annoying? Seriously, what is the problem? Is it me, or is it people in our life stage right now? Does anybody have time for each other these days? Gah, I am just really bummed out lately. Don’t mind me.

So here’s something disggusting

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Jonathon went to pick Bailey up from the church nursery and she was sucking on a pacifier.

Um, she doesn’t HAVE a pacifier. The workers claimed that she had it at the beginning of the hour (second service) when they got there. No, she didn’t. I was in there when they all got there, and trust me, I would have noticed if my child had a pacifier in her mouth.

That skeeves me out more than just a little bit. Bailey might not be returning to the nursery until after the holidays except for when I am working in there. I would rather NOT have her share pacifiers and get sick for Christmas. She’s only been sick once up until now, knock on wood

Hello, blogland

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I just wanted to pop in and say hi. I have been kind of blah lately… not sure why. This weekend has been rather uneventful since Thanksgiving. Hung out with my parents and Jonathon some more, and went to church. Tried to take cute Christmas pics of Bailey today and failed miserably. Went to meet some friends at Starbucks, we were running late, paid $8 for drinks for the two of us, and everyone left soon after we got there. Now I am listing some stuff on Craigslist and just took a quick break from that. Do you think women’s lingerie has a good resale value? LOL

Oh, and the bill from Jonathon’s recent doctor stuff came and we owe $450. Merry Christmas. I tore it in half and figure if they want the money, they will send me a bill again next month. And that’s SO not like me, but I’m sick of these bills. If only I was poor and didn’t bother to have health insurance. Those guys who work the system, they’ve got it made.

Anyway, I couldn’t leave you without any new Bailey pictures

I am an idiot

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I lost my entire keychain. Seriously. And I have Jonathon’s car here today and no spare key. Grrrr I missed a playdate with friends My mom might pick me up later and take me out.

Froze My Toes

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Tonight we went to a rehearsal for a wedding Jonathon is in tomorrow, and then to the dinner afterwards. The dinner was very nicely done- a buffet from Pasta House and it was decorated really cute. Everything was consistent with the theme of the wedding. HOWEVER- it was outside and they did not tell us this in advance.

I wore a 3/4 length sleeve shirt, and open toed shoes. Oops.

They showed a cute slideshow/video of the bride and groom growing up, meeting each other, etc. They had a bonfire outside. I listened in to lots of weird conversations, including one about RC airplanes and one about this guy’s travel issues with his job. But most of the time I was just wishing I was warm.

Not my day today

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Bailey woke up about a gazillion times during the night last night. I think it’s her teeth… but of course I’ve been saying that for a long time now so maybe she’s just being a PITA. Who knows, she just wants to lay on my lap and smile at me at about 4:30 a.m. and NO, she won’t cry herself back to sleep if I just leave her there. If I get up with her, snuggle her, and maybe nurse her for a minute or two then she goes right back down. But it makes for being very tired in the morning. Plus, she woke up way earlier than usual today. Being the bad mommy that I am, I put her in her bouncy seat, turned on a BE video, and went back to bed for another half hour or so.

Then, here’s the kicker. On the way to the gym, I got a ticket. I got pulled over for not making a “complete stop” at a stop sign that didn’t even exist not too long ago. But that’s not what the ticket was for- it was for failure to show proof of insurance. Can I help it that my new insurance card came like the week I gave birth? Was that really supposed to be at the top of my list of things to do. Let’s see… Feed baby, sleep, feed baby, oh yeah, put new insurance card in wallet. Nope.

The ticket is only $24 as long as I go to the Ballwin Po Station and show them my insurance card. Jerks.

I also need to do some Christmas shopping- I HAVE TO GET STARTED! Thinking about getting grandpa Ingersoll Rand air tools. He is impossible. I mean MY grandpa, not Bailey’s. I just feel frazzled and busy and stressed. And of course we don’t exactly have tons of extra money for Christmas gifts this year- we usually spend too much anyway- but that makes me sad

It’s going to get better, right?

Um yeah… of course things are different

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My dad is getting ready to go to Arizona for golf school. He has done this a few times before- golf is kind of his obsession. He goes by himself. You know, so he can focus on the golf. We have joked to him in the past that he should invest in some Arizona real estate for when he retires. My mom used to tell him that since he stayed in STL with her for so long, that they could go wherever they wanted to when he retired. Now with Bailey here, not so much.

Funny how babies change everything, even when you swear they won’t. I was crying the other night because I missed how my life used to be without Bailey- like sleeping late and leaving home at the spur of the moment, or making cards and not being interrupted by someone needing attention. Don’t get me wrong, I love her so much and wouldn’t trade this for anything, but sometimes I just want a break.

My dream would be for Jonathon to say, “Honey, why don’t you take a break one night this week and let me watch Bailey.” I mean, he’ll let me have a break IF I ASK or make plans and tell him he’s watching her. But it would be nice for him to offer.

Today at my nursing group, we were all talking about this. I know moms in general don’t get much of a break, but I think especially if you are breastfeeding- even if you’re away, you have to worry about the baby having bottles, or making sure you can pump or won’t leak… and lately we have the issue of Bailey being mad if she can’t nurse before bed, so now Jonathon hates putting her to sleep. Ug

This has gotten really rambly and complainy so I’m stopping. I don’t even know what I was trying to say, except that I was thinking about how much things have changed. Duhhhh

Full Frontal Nudity

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Oye, this will probably get me some weird readers.

Anyhoo (don’t you hate people who say “anyhoo?”) my in-laws are in town until tomorrow morning. That is my explanation for the lack of posting… and also the suicidal feelings…

Tonight I got home from work at my inventory job and desperately needed to pump. I changed into my nursing nightgown which opens in the front. Went into MY office, CLOSED THE DOOR, and sat down to pump. OPened my nightgown and reached for the pump pieces. Fully exposed from the undies on up, including the tatas and the belly fat.

In walks the MIL. WTF??? I was like, “Whoa, the door was closed!” and turned around quickly in my desk chair to try to cover myself. She said something like, “Oh, I didn’t realize I shouldn’t come in.”

Yeah, normally when a door is closed, it’s closed for a reason. If we were people who kept ALL the doors closed in our house ALL THE TIME, I could understand the confusion. Except nobody does that. So there was no reason for her not to understand perfectly clearly…. knock before opening a closed door…

And so my mother in law now knows exactly what her son’s wife looks like naked from the waist up. I hope it haunts her.

Squeezing Back In

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Um, yeah. I’m trying to squish my finger back into my wedding ring/engagement ring. I had to quit wearing them about 34 weeks, and then when Bailey was around two months old I was able to get them back on (they are soldered together). If you didn’t know me/read me back then, I got insanely swollen toward the end of the pregnancy. But for the last month or so, I haven’t been able to get them on at all. I am hoping it’s just swelling from the heat/humidity.

Has everyone else been able to wear their rings by now except for me? Just curious- I thought about getting mine resized but Jonathon and I had our wedding bands engraved (mine says All My Love and his says Forever My Love) and they said it would mess up the engraving… we could always get it redone but it’s the thought…

I am going to at least hold off until the weather gets cooler and see if it fits any better. This SUCKS!

What Really Annoys Me

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Is when people touch Bailey’s little ears/earrings with their nasty fingers.

Do I walk up to you and grope your earlobes?

Didn’t think so. Please refrain from doing it to my daughter. Yuck.

In other news, my media drive thingy in my computer is not being recognized so I can’t post any new pics from my camera right now. This has happened before and Jonathon has fixed it, so I just have to wait till he has some time to do it Prepare yourself for a massive amount of pics when it gets fixed!

Also Jonathon always seems to have some computer project going on. He has been saying something about needing more IBM memory, and wanting new drives, and trying to do some new things. Hello! Fix my problem first!

*Side note- we are selling a bunch of computer stuff on a garage sale (not at our house) on Sept 15th. If you know me IRL, I’ll give you the details! We’ll also have some baby stuff and clothes and a tv or two there

St. Louis Drivers

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They have got to be the rudest, most hurried and impatient drivers of anywhere I have ever been. WHY is it so hard to let someone merge in front of you? Especially in mid-afternoon… not during rush hour, or in heavy traffic even. Apparently it would be better to just get run off the road.

I need a freakin train horn for my car. Yes, there is actually a place where you can buy one. It can be attached to your car, boat, truck, etc. I bet if I had something like that, people would get out of my way!

I may have a junky looking little purple car, but that doesn’t mean I want to be squashed in it! And hello, I have a baby in my car. Please be careful! Do I need one of those dorky Baby on Board signs??

My Baby is Sick :(

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In lieu of a Wordless Wednesday post today, I’m going to tell you the sad story of my sick baby. Well, if I am up to it later I might do a WW post… but anyway, on to more important things: Bailey has her first cold.

First Jonathon was sick, and then me, and within about a day of me showing Symptoms Bailey was also getting sniffly… so therefore I am convinced she caught it from Jonathon and not me. But that’s neither here nor there. She started out sniffly on Monday night and I called and made her a doctor appt. Her pediatrician is out of town so she was supposed to see someone else in the practice. Well then on Tuesday she seemed fine so I cancelled the appointment. Of course. Only to have her crabby and very congested last night. So I got up this morning and got her an appointment for 11:30 today.

She saw a nurse practitioner in the same office. She said that she has a cold, but thankfully her ears and lungs are clear. She gave us some Pediacare cold med and also told me stuff to do like saline mist/aspirator in her nose before nursing to help her breathe while eating. And sleeping upright as much as possible, and a humidifier in her room. She also said it could take up to two weeks for her to get better at this age! WHAT!?!

Of course my first thought is anger toward Jonathon for bringing sickness into our house. Not that he did it intentionally, but I swear the guy gets sick five times for every one time I do. Normally I don’t even catch what he has. Then I’m frustrated with myself for getting it. ANd I feel bad that Bailey feels bad. She is such a little trooper. She tries to smile and then she’ll cough or her throat will rattle and she will make the cutest little sad face and start whining. Then she’s back to herself again until she remembers she doesn’t feel well.

Does she hate the saline drops and aspirator? Yes she does! I am thinking about discontinuing them as they seem more aggravating than helpful at this point. If she is having trouble eating then I can try them again. For now, she is only nursing on one side but it seems to be enough to keep her happy.